I think that there is a lot to be said about how one feels from day to day. It's not that everyday should be the same nor should there be a series of schizophrenic days, but there is definitely an ebb and flow to each day. I cant seem to shake a sense of sadness that is just overwhelming. I seem to second guess everything in front of me.
It is so hard to see the person others see in me these days. I feel really alone, unloved, fat, ugly, yada yada yada. All the things that women feel at one point or another. So the question is how do I shake it? I just don't know what to do.
Today as I walked up the parkway on my way home from my run and errands, I thought back to my life 3 years ago. I was such a different person. Literally and figuratively. I just can't seem to deduce whether I was a happier person or a person in denial. I looked different. I felt different. I was different. But I was not lacking in companionship. Could that possibly be what was making me feel so happy? Food for thought...
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